Working on the Endeavor today feels like a chore. I know what I want to say and how I want to say it—and I am on track to finish by my self-imposed dealine—but I simply don't want to do it. I don't have the spirit or energy to push through today. Why? Why am I self-sabotaging when I am so close to the finish line?

I read somewhere that temptation (in my case the temptation to be lazy and not write) is there to remind me that I am in control of my destiny; and that by acknowledging that I am being tempted and then making a conscious effort to push through, I am propelling myself into the life I want.


I am just not feeling it today. I've tried to fight against this horrible feeling all day and I cannot bring myself out of the doldrums.

If I allow temptation to win today...will it win tomorrow, the day after and then the day after that?

I will let you know tomorrow. Or perhaps not.


C. W.